its the first friday in a while that i don’t work, which means i get to drink that bottle of wine and watch buffy/blood+ all night. plus i cleaned my room so its all nice and shiny. i’m going to make a big spaghetti feast for my family. i dont know why i cant do these things on weekdays. anakin is teething again, its kind of a nightmare. laid in bed most of the day thursday which i never get to do anymore. Ive been mostly happy lately, i think. unless my brain is tricking me. it feels like it could be, what if im not really happy at all. i keep doubting everything and questioning everything. im trying not to though. trying my hardest.

