ive never missed anyone more than you two in my whole fucking life
how is it possible for someone to fuck up their life so fucking much. i keep trying to trick myself into thinking its going to be okay, but its really not going to. nothing is ever going to be okay. i will never get back what i lost. i cant live without you i dont want to, i wont. might as well be dead. im completely empty inside and nothing will ever fix that. and its all my fucking fault. i have no one to blame but myself.